Last night.....on the eve of UP AME no Jidai...
I was preparing all my materials (costume, make-up, accessories etc.).
I was happy that my costume was already finished....and carried on without any problem...
Then suddenly.....BOOM
I can't go to the event anymore......I was totally SHOCKED.....
I was there....silently minding my costume and day dreaming of the fun things that I might do the next day.....
But that single word......"You are not going to that convention. PERIOD"
Without any question asked, the decision was SET. I was left with no defense.
I was shocked....I thought "What happened.....what did I do?" 0___________0
Then I waited.....I patiently as I can, listened on why I wasnt going to be permitted....
I listened carefully.....analyzing....and then it struck me.....PINAGBUBUNTUNGAN LANG PALA AKO NG GALIT ( I'm just caught on the crossfire) ....with nothing to defend myself with....
I was left with the big "GROUNDED FROM COSPLAYING UNTIL I GRADUATE" pasted on my forehead.
I try to reason with all my might ( with patience intact ).....pleading on why I have to stop....something that I LOVE SO MUCH because of some hormonal changes....but no....it just fell into deaf ears.
I cannot cry....I MUST NOT CRY........but I did ...as soon as they went away. I was left with my happiness crushed to the ground....pitifull .....
In big ways....cosplaying brought me more than I expected....it brought me unexplainable happiness from bring able to create/have something that is a form of art ( which I wasnt able to express for a long time)....friends and colleagues that makes me smile uncontrollably happy.
So there....I would be on hiatus until I graduate....my costumes will be stored/hidden from sight ....but for the upcoming shoot ::I will be using my "magic" to be still able to finish it::
So goodbye for now.....I'm sad.....it felt like a part of me just died right then and there.....next year.....I will be on full force cosplay......
My philosophy of ...." Never ever let something stop you from being happy".....is just....gggahhhhhh....cant take it..
