Updates, updates..
Hmmm, a lot has happened...
I graduated already, Nursing. Reviewed for the boards, taken it and passed it! Thank you Lord for that! And now I'm working, as a Technical Support Representative in TP, doing some sucky stuff on Verizon internet in the States.
I mean, I'm happy that I have a job...but still, there are just some things that I wish I had done before facing the corporate world.
VACATION!!! I've never been given even a week of problem-free solitude, I would have wanted to be on hermit-mode in Batanes, to walk around, just thingking about nothing at all...but I wasn't given the opportunity ...
So here I am, working my ass off to save for my dreams...
Problems have been also a main stay in my life, no one really gets away from it, but yeah, it just seems that these things are so burdening to the point of you just wanna surrender to the feeling of hopelessness...
But I never did manage to let myself wallow in that bottomless pit, I am 20 now, I am someone I may not recognize if I am still the same old 18 person that I am.
Truthfully, maturity kinda took it's toll on me, earlier than I ever expected. I am not ashamed of what I did in the past, because it's what gave me this strong heart that I have now. The heart that is much more stronger, open minded and stands up for herself.
It is a compliment that everyone in work says that I act and talk mature than most of them (they're 20-30++ people), but there is always something bothering me, because I don't really wanna be that mature fast....there are still some things that I have not yet experienced, a lot...and I am so much looking forward to it. But sometimes loneliness can be just effin' crazy.
I never had any relationship with anyone, my friends are enough, as I might often say, but sometimes you just can't say that anymore, especially when you have no one to talk to at night. The need of having someone just for you is very mush vexing. There have been a lot of opportunities that came and presented me with that chance, but I never did grab it. I am a paranoid, scared one I may honestly say, but it dawned to me, why ever go into a relationship if it's just for the sake of having it. So now here I am...
Hoping that something interesting will go on with my life, something that can lighten up my life...
eheheh...sorry for the drama...
